Truth hurts but i'd still much prefer the truth, rather than be a fool not knowing a thing of one's opinion or perception. It does not matter if i get so down about it, i'll get over it sooner or later. I do not want to go into further details on this one. i think i'm giving up for a while. fuck law of attraction. i'm just tired, it's too impossible in a way that my illusion cannot relate with reality. My brain is based on only realistic that something impossible cannot be pertained with something that isn't logic. bla bla bla.
I've been through stuff, i'd much prefer to not talk about it, especially family problems and keep it to myself. As i grew older, i understand that some words are better left unsaid. Because my pride and dignity is in my hands, i won't let it out--clenching it hard. Once you've talked about the issues you've had, to me you've failed to hold it in, just like grains of sand slipping from the grasping of your hands.
You're exposing your real life to a judge mental world. Not everyone will understand. Plus all of these predicaments are not intentionally, it's unintentional, just a mere unconsious accident with a little bit of fate. Who in the world intend to make mistakes? although they are bound to happen. They forgot to suck it in to their brains--that humans do make mistakes.
All i'm trying to say is, i'm still afraid what people would know about our family situation, although we pretend that they don't exist. It's humiliating. i just hope it's over and done.
